This afternoon, I left my phone in silence and took a nap, coincidentally i woke up, answered a call and i went down to collect something for wm and misplaced my keys under the void deck. 12am. I strangely decided to eat some air. I searched for my keys and realised it's gone. I went down the void deck, asked a homeless guy if he's seen it. knowing it's alr long gone. i sat down somewhr else and smoked to how bad my life was the past few months. just when i finished, and decided to headed towards my lift. Another homeless guy called out. Hey. is this ur key? yes. Holy fucking shit. It was. weird.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NdYWuo9OFAw&playnext=1&list=PL61C73FB9AFD19248

New youtube music playlist :) got some nice songs... Not yet arranged.. just some random songs that i compiled while insomnia

Let this video be the healing for everyone. there're actually only 2 person who read my blog. :)

Went thru all the letters, photos and gifts.

I'm moving on...

I'll be strong :)

http://youtu.be/hH5ZecYkrXo

A long time since I posted.

its coming to an end of 2010.

some reflections and summary of the year 2010.

Work took up most of my time this year.

nonetheless, gave me a taste of success in society this year.
From a last minute project attended and tasked to me,
up to ***k, from proposal, operations, daily maintenance, costing, finding staff.
Meeting the standards and requests of Management from marina bay sands.
Learn a lot from the various managers who had helped me so much, taught me so much.

Sometimes, I could work and go on without resting properly or eating properly for days. For the first 6 months of 2010 i think i had less than 2 days off every month.

Well, at september and october, Wei siong came to help, returning back a lot of off days.

Friends,

I didn't have much commitment to much friends. Fly aeroplane all the time. It's not the commitment, sometimes i'm tired. I like my personal space a lot. I'll try not to fly too many aeroplanes in 2011 :)

Got to know a group of friends from MBS. pretty fun group, just that only close with a few of them.

Money,

Burned out a lot of my savings on the job all the way till DEC. where my pay was rised to 2.6k :)

I want to save 20k by the end of 2011. a bit hard but what about 10k !!!

For 2011,

I'd Want to

Work and make more success
Study and get a degree in sg since i rejected the overseas studies
Save a lot of money
Travel
Grow more hair
Get some decent new clothes
Slim down, get fit and run a marathon
be happy, cause life doesn't give you a lot of time to be sad,
way to happiness is just deal with it, leave it and be happy.

had been some time since i've blogged... hmmm,

This 3 soundtracks are my favs right now...

The K.Drama. Baking king. Is my top top top top top fav drama right now.

Reminds one the importance of values :)

My most special motivation to keep me going !!

Jia you !!

I'll patiently watch again and still find it the best :)

[MP3 OST King Of Baking] Lee seun Chul - That Person
Uploaded by makino-tsukushi. - Watch more music videos, in HD!

I got something amazing to say!!

Hmmmx...due to the start of the booth, not counting meetings and executions of stuff.
now the registration starts 2pm, which means i need to wake up at around 12 to get there and 1 plus to set up the counter. that excludes my daily work of......
12am - 5am, plus a preparation and email/operation planning of at least 1-2hours in advanced.
THerefore once I wake up, I start work till i finish work I go slp.
HAHAHAHAHAS... I'VE LOST COUNT OF MY MEALTIMES and STUFF.

The interesting part is...
I had a dream ever since the counter starts.
I would dream I woke up to work and at a specific timing.
the 2nd day of booth, I woke up in my dream and thought it was 3 and was freaked out.
luckily it was only 12.
THe 3rd day... today, I woke up in my dream where i thought was 11am. but then i reality it was only 9!!! and in reality I also woke up..

I think some circuits might have crashed...

ah.. Been some time since i blogged.
Still... nonetheless, work owns my life.
reservice, mbs opening, mbs night transport new system.
Totally left me no space.
24hrs-48hrs of surviving on power naps.
still. it's pretty exciting.
I'm in charge of a 200k Project,
from paper work to operations, some hiccups here and there,
but the sweet beautiful standards and results are there.
But it's freaking tiring... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
lol
and my luck on my life is so bad.
work is pretty decent though.
I lost my wallet, broke my phone, broke my car and here and there.
NO time to relax, sometimes when i got time...
I even feel like working... cause i got pretty much nothing else to do.
Unless i have something i am interested in if not I feel like working...
a holiday, a road trip !! I WANT !!!!!!!!!!
WTF... life of a workaholic.

like this song

my life, work and stuff.
a lot still don't get to see a lot of results
but...
I'm proud and glad that.
other than myself,
things are doing great for others.
jia you.
you can do so much better and life would be so much exciting.

I still have lots of work, effort and torture to endure,
but I'll find the good stuff, good team, good environment and happy stuff one by one.

work hard for tomorrow.
=D

yay !!
Things are looking up!!
There will surely be more work, more stress, more scolding, more torture, less sleep.
But...
Guess what ?
I'll take all that shit,
In exchange for that little success and satisfaction.
some may think it's not worth it,
awwwwww... It's sad.
but, hahaha. It's so worth it. Just that you won't find out.

Earn more, save more, when everything is done, stable with a system, perfect.
Then... I'll enjoy like no tomorrow!!

I'm really getting lucky.
Yay.
Jia you !!!

Actually i wrote a lot but saved in drafts,

Just a few important words.

It's my responsibility.
I'll make sure it works and get done.

And right now,
let me enjoy the tiny rewards and satisfaction.

i'm clearing up everything. I need to escape for a while. I think i had enough.

Maybe i'm not strong enough or whatever shit,

I really want a peace of mind right now.

its tough. but i'll be fine. I think.

had fever 38.9 degrees still playing manjong,

halfway give up. too shagged.

still a bit sick, but i'll be ok.

Miss a lot of things.

searching for things to fill my tiny empty slots of not working time.

Hardly any but, I'll be alright :)

happpy birthday to me :)

guess what was i doing at 12am ?
WORK !!
till morning..
pretty much not expecting anything expect to rest prepare for tonight's work.

sometimes it's really tough,
SERIOUSLY painful job.
really gets in and kill you from all directions.
worst part is.
Nobody really available to watch your back,
and on the support side it's as good as nobody.

but whose to blame ?

I guess its all me :)

I'll survive.
I'll not let those old arrogant bastards have their last laugh.
I'll make them swallow their meaningless, worthless words,
I'll clear up their tiny, shallow minds.

Messy as it is now my life.
rotting as i am now,
I'll clear it up,
I'll find my new source of energy somewhere.

:) tt'd be resolution for 24, SUCCESS !!

Ok.

This has been a few really bad weeks and days.

Sometimes really cannot take it.
The phone KEEPS ringing, ringing, ringing.
Argggg

but today's entry is not about whining about work.

its about the Panthera onca !!!!

Man, ITS FREAKING AWESOME.

and my only happy thing this few weeks/months to come.

yupx. lets hope it'll keep me going. :)

I feel cool, in it.

working hard ?

My fav 3 movies at the moment

All of them are fantastic. Seriously,

Man in the chair
Good Will Hunting
Juno

All 3 can break you down to tears.

Make you smile
Make you laugh
Make you feel

Love this 3 movies
Made my day.

Some soundtrack and trailers below :)



This one's about a simple story about a whip smart gal.
beautiful soundtrack, art and directions.




This one's about a young director and his movie.
Making his movie and learning so much more.



This one's about a genius, learning and coping with life and love.

Love this 3 movies.

soundtrack for Juno !!

so tired ..
so slpy
until nearly fall aslp during driving...
seriously like today, nearly at least 4-5 times,
i think i scare the shit outta myself during driving..
wonder if this is tough enough ?
I doubt so.
but fuck it...
unless i faint or die,
keep moving forward..
gotta keep going..