step 26

find myself too negative and inconfident ...
get a life !!
not to worries...
time to find keith for evil entertainment... hahas..
time to find yuan zhi hopefully clement too for track training...
time to find shiling and ze kai to cafes and chill...
time to find Tep friends for bowling etc hopefully ...
but then be4 tt study first loh ...

today rest day... rest my legs.. hahas... to get to top 3 for 10km ... i needa run 40mins ... not 49mins... to get into top 6 for 800m ... needa run 2mins 05secs ... to get into top6 for 5 km.. its 18mins...
focus.. !! end of class le ...

step 26

find myself too negative and inconfident ...
get a life !!
not to worries...
time to find keith for evil entertainment... hahas..
time to find yuan zhi hopefully clement too for track training...
time to find shiling and ze kai to cafes and chill...
time to find Tep friends for bowling etc hopefully ...
but then be4 tt study first loh ...

today rest day... rest my legs.. hahas... to get to top 3 for 10km ... i needa run 40mins ... not 49mins... to get into top 6 for 800m ... needa run 2mins 05secs ... to get into top6 for 5 km.. its 18mins...
focus.. !! end of class le ...

Step -25

the end...
guess i deserve every single bit of this results....
i dun know how to express myself now le...
cant believe i would end up in a state like this...
hahas... dunnoe y i gotten so deep into it..
until i find myself able to cont tt feeling even if i would still end up with nothing...
hahas... so sad manx...
i used to be unbeatable , wont be affected by this kinda stuff...
i wont juz cant be bother or i would juz give serious attitude problem so i wont need to get myself too into it....
hahaas... guess i failed... lost miserably !!
Dun appear can ? coz i dun know wad kinda feeling i would haf...
Juz dun come anywhere near k .... save me some pity bahx...
yupz... no point thinking bout this kinda stuff le... hopefully time would take this fast fast away !!! concentrate on regaining my heart, confidence and faith first bahx...
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Ran 35 rounds around track... 1hr 10 mins... ran 10km at 49mins... its nothing good at all ... needa be stronger... needa work harder... hahas... my mummy says i got self torture de character... hahas... maybe bahx... as long as i get regain myself , character and faith and never say die to nothing de confidence... i dun mind work till i drop... face it... i'm not me anymore... face it... i am nothing compared to the old me anymore... the strong, loyal true friend to my peers... the confidence true jian qiang i used to haf to face every problem and people...

i'll work hard to get my life back to the neat organised simple life.. with track and friends... the 2 most impt things i haf... then my jiang qiang & yuan ze & pride will come back !!

Step -25

the end...
guess i deserve every single bit of this results....
i dun know how to express myself now le...
cant believe i would end up in a state like this...
hahas... dunnoe y i gotten so deep into it..
until i find myself able to cont tt feeling even if i would still end up with nothing...
hahas... so sad manx...
i used to be unbeatable , wont be affected by this kinda stuff...
i wont juz cant be bother or i would juz give serious attitude problem so i wont need to get myself too into it....
hahaas... guess i failed... lost miserably !!
Dun appear can ? coz i dun know wad kinda feeling i would haf...
Juz dun come anywhere near k .... save me some pity bahx...
yupz... no point thinking bout this kinda stuff le... hopefully time would take this fast fast away !!! concentrate on regaining my heart, confidence and faith first bahx...
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Ran 35 rounds around track... 1hr 10 mins... ran 10km at 49mins... its nothing good at all ... needa be stronger... needa work harder... hahas... my mummy says i got self torture de character... hahas... maybe bahx... as long as i get regain myself , character and faith and never say die to nothing de confidence... i dun mind work till i drop... face it... i'm not me anymore... face it... i am nothing compared to the old me anymore... the strong, loyal true friend to my peers... the confidence true jian qiang i used to haf to face every problem and people...

i'll work hard to get my life back to the neat organised simple life.. with track and friends... the 2 most impt things i haf... then my jiang qiang & yuan ze & pride will come back !!

step 24

its 24th jan !! 3am.. juz finish a run and bath... today shall be my rest day...
hmmx... realli gotta study le ...
wad i feel like saying wanna say already said...
now can peacefully leave things aside and work hard !!!

step 24

its 24th jan !! 3am.. juz finish a run and bath... today shall be my rest day...
hmmx... realli gotta study le ...
wad i feel like saying wanna say already said...
now can peacefully leave things aside and work hard !!!

Step 23- messy afternoon

got mani mani thots...
yet dun know how to say...
wadever...
I've decided...
thks to my friends ...
I juz wanted to reconfirm my thots..
I may nv be some1 special to ya...
I may nv take a place in ur heart...
but wadever....
but juz 4 a thot...
maybe 1 day... rmb me as a special some1...
wAdever...
hitz dAz roaDs 2niTeZ...
yE@...

Step 23- messy afternoon

got mani mani thots...
yet dun know how to say...
wadever...
I've decided...
thks to my friends ...
I juz wanted to reconfirm my thots..
I may nv be some1 special to ya...
I may nv take a place in ur heart...
but wadever....
but juz 4 a thot...
maybe 1 day... rmb me as a special some1...
wAdever...
hitz dAz roaDs 2niTeZ...
yE@...

step 23

hahas... its 1am in the morning ... my legs are shagged... tmr got lotsa stuff to complete.. and i am eating new year goodies..

Lost my wallet !!
the lucky person who finds my wallet at tampines library tt area...
return it to bahx... hahas.. fat hope... but no harm asking ...

I brought NEW RUNNING GEAR...
New shoe , socks and singlet...
yea... time to hit daz road...

step 23

hahas... its 1am in the morning ... my legs are shagged... tmr got lotsa stuff to complete.. and i am eating new year goodies..

Lost my wallet !!
the lucky person who finds my wallet at tampines library tt area...
return it to bahx... hahas.. fat hope... but no harm asking ...

I brought NEW RUNNING GEAR...
New shoe , socks and singlet...
yea... time to hit daz road...

step 22...

damm it... tired... need slp... like 1 whole week slping less than 5 hrs most of the days...

hahs... hates to see tt person... the mood ,the reaction & myself will go haywire...
i'm an idiot and has yet to let go of it...
i promised myself 1 yr... after tt... i'll let go ...
before tt... can/are we be/still friends?
after tt.. can/are we still/be friends/will we stay friends?

Friendship is important to me... if i ever admitted some1 as a friend... true friend...
I give them everything i can for them ... as long as i am able to...
coz a true friend is one tt is real.. and tt i would take u along for life !!! coz i'll always be there !!!

Let's now not think so much le...

less than 3 more weeks i would be seeing school or etc anymore le...
so best not thikn and work...
I train hard hard... for track... next yr , my last yr... give it ur best...
disciple, passion, and motivation...

hahas... the next 3 weeks is all mine... settle the studies, settle the fitness...
there will be no days 4 SU , for entertainment..
yupz .... tts tt..

step 22...

damm it... tired... need slp... like 1 whole week slping less than 5 hrs most of the days...

hahs... hates to see tt person... the mood ,the reaction & myself will go haywire...
i'm an idiot and has yet to let go of it...
i promised myself 1 yr... after tt... i'll let go ...
before tt... can/are we be/still friends?
after tt.. can/are we still/be friends/will we stay friends?

Friendship is important to me... if i ever admitted some1 as a friend... true friend...
I give them everything i can for them ... as long as i am able to...
coz a true friend is one tt is real.. and tt i would take u along for life !!! coz i'll always be there !!!

Let's now not think so much le...

less than 3 more weeks i would be seeing school or etc anymore le...
so best not thikn and work...
I train hard hard... for track... next yr , my last yr... give it ur best...
disciple, passion, and motivation...

hahas... the next 3 weeks is all mine... settle the studies, settle the fitness...
there will be no days 4 SU , for entertainment..
yupz .... tts tt..

Stepz 20

went to quality hotel ...
My dad's company de "customers" "supplier" or "cooperative companys" celebrations party...
hahas... less than 30% singaporean...
the dinner and food was nice..
but then atmosphere was like in the 80's !! whaahs... ppl singing ai bin jian eh yin... ai qing cai cai ?? >.<...
it isnt the first time i went there and entertain le ...
My mother celebrated her birthday with 50-60 ppl of a jewellery store and shopping centre , tour guides...

haahhas... last time they give HONG BAOS of $100 DOLLARS de !!!
they still serve free flow of wine and beer.. but then not realli feel like it...

haas... anyway happy birthday to Student union president and mother...

still nothing like wad i used to be...
ahhhhhhh.....
so evil.... haahas... must start training like crazi and think less...
work work work.. !!!!!

Stepz 20

went to quality hotel ...
My dad's company de "customers" "supplier" or "cooperative companys" celebrations party...
hahas... less than 30% singaporean...
the dinner and food was nice..
but then atmosphere was like in the 80's !! whaahs... ppl singing ai bin jian eh yin... ai qing cai cai ?? >.<...
it isnt the first time i went there and entertain le ...
My mother celebrated her birthday with 50-60 ppl of a jewellery store and shopping centre , tour guides...

haahhas... last time they give HONG BAOS of $100 DOLLARS de !!!
they still serve free flow of wine and beer.. but then not realli feel like it...

haas... anyway happy birthday to Student union president and mother...

still nothing like wad i used to be...
ahhhhhhh.....
so evil.... haahas... must start training like crazi and think less...
work work work.. !!!!!

step 20

oh manx... havent been training juz eating eating eating..
later evening go run far far away ... tt'd be interesting

hmmx..
Jap hw luckily managed to complete and made my day...
then here comes the jap e-quiz...
25 vocab japanese language question ... i swear i recongise no more than 5 words...
i managed a 14/25 ...
25 listening japanese language question... lucky i know some numbers...
i managed a 19/25 ...
I practised my role play wif ban, xin ... they're realli gd.. luckily gt some practise..
33/50 !!! OMG... >.< haahs...

japanese module juz needa practise role play a little jiu settle le...
gotta thank tt gal wif daz Homework.. !!


Stay strong... Stand tall... U are everything u believe u are... believe.. and give ur best... and the best will come back to u ... Life isnt about onli one thing... life has many other important things that are precious and important.. juz that u might have accidentally forgotten or misplaced it ... Dun lose heart ... dun lose hope... coz.. if ya haf hope... believe in it.. make it happen...

STOP !! TAKE A BREAK!!! TAKE A REST!!
and then think... wads important to you ?
Friends? family? Success ? Love ? studies ?
then think hard !!
Wad, Y do u live for ?
wad are the reasons ya get lost for ?
friends who cherish u
Memories that created
Character
Family support
and lots more lots more...
all these are the important stuff that u haf...
aint all these much much more valuable...
If ya lost ya way...
take a rest ...
rediscover the stuff u already have...
regain ur fighting spirits...
and then pick urself up...
give ur best... then at least there wouldn't be any regrets...

Jia you !!

step 20

oh manx... havent been training juz eating eating eating..
later evening go run far far away ... tt'd be interesting

hmmx..
Jap hw luckily managed to complete and made my day...
then here comes the jap e-quiz...
25 vocab japanese language question ... i swear i recongise no more than 5 words...
i managed a 14/25 ...
25 listening japanese language question... lucky i know some numbers...
i managed a 19/25 ...
I practised my role play wif ban, xin ... they're realli gd.. luckily gt some practise..
33/50 !!! OMG... >.< haahs...

japanese module juz needa practise role play a little jiu settle le...
gotta thank tt gal wif daz Homework.. !!


Stay strong... Stand tall... U are everything u believe u are... believe.. and give ur best... and the best will come back to u ... Life isnt about onli one thing... life has many other important things that are precious and important.. juz that u might have accidentally forgotten or misplaced it ... Dun lose heart ... dun lose hope... coz.. if ya haf hope... believe in it.. make it happen...

STOP !! TAKE A BREAK!!! TAKE A REST!!
and then think... wads important to you ?
Friends? family? Success ? Love ? studies ?
then think hard !!
Wad, Y do u live for ?
wad are the reasons ya get lost for ?
friends who cherish u
Memories that created
Character
Family support
and lots more lots more...
all these are the important stuff that u haf...
aint all these much much more valuable...
If ya lost ya way...
take a rest ...
rediscover the stuff u already have...
regain ur fighting spirits...
and then pick urself up...
give ur best... then at least there wouldn't be any regrets...

Jia you !!

Step 18- Contz

I dun haf God-Talent like Kumar...
I dun haf God-Speed like Ze kai...
I dun haf God-Stamina like that insane Uni guy...
I dun haf God-Strength like Damien...

I aint got nothing from birth...
and is still far far far from to the ppl in the competition today...

Compared to everything they train..
Compared to trainings in the rain , in the sun,
Compared to 4 trainings a week...
Compared to the effort they give...

Wad is track to me?
It changed my life...
gave me confidence, friends..
a dream...

I noe i haf got no chance... Not a single chance... but i dun need to win... i dun need to haf results... coz giving my best to things i like... dun need to haf results... its already good enough for me...

Step 18- Contz

I dun haf God-Talent like Kumar...
I dun haf God-Speed like Ze kai...
I dun haf God-Stamina like that insane Uni guy...
I dun haf God-Strength like Damien...

I aint got nothing from birth...
and is still far far far from to the ppl in the competition today...

Compared to everything they train..
Compared to trainings in the rain , in the sun,
Compared to 4 trainings a week...
Compared to the effort they give...

Wad is track to me?
It changed my life...
gave me confidence, friends..
a dream...

I noe i haf got no chance... Not a single chance... but i dun need to win... i dun need to haf results... coz giving my best to things i like... dun need to haf results... its already good enough for me...

step 18

hahas... slack 3 days le.. gottta run .. run ... run... cannot slack behind... slping about 4 hrs a night sucks... hahas.. then gotta go school to refill sleep lvl... and it was 3 days of Lotsa food... and I'm adddicted to Glucose... the more i drink ... the more high and energy i get...

hahas... its now 140am in the morning ... hahas.. i dun think i can run tonight... eat too much le.. feel like slpin

hmmx... baka 40 jia you!! know ya kinda messy right now... cheer up ... coz no matter wad shit u'did be facing... ur friends will be standing right there to company u through... coz our friendship rockkks.. and we did be still friends until we old old and when our teeth fall off...

well... find myself unable to get over it... haahaas.. i got friends that tahan 3 yrs , 5 yrs... i intend onli 1 .. ahahas.. wadever... its my problem..

step 18

hahas... slack 3 days le.. gottta run .. run ... run... cannot slack behind... slping about 4 hrs a night sucks... hahas.. then gotta go school to refill sleep lvl... and it was 3 days of Lotsa food... and I'm adddicted to Glucose... the more i drink ... the more high and energy i get...

hahas... its now 140am in the morning ... hahas.. i dun think i can run tonight... eat too much le.. feel like slpin

hmmx... baka 40 jia you!! know ya kinda messy right now... cheer up ... coz no matter wad shit u'did be facing... ur friends will be standing right there to company u through... coz our friendship rockkks.. and we did be still friends until we old old and when our teeth fall off...

well... find myself unable to get over it... haahaas.. i got friends that tahan 3 yrs , 5 yrs... i intend onli 1 .. ahahas.. wadever... its my problem..