4 mths since i last blogged !!
my life...
long entry tonight >.< ...

hows life this 4 months ??
i dun know... time flies so fast...
it feels helpless to be unable to grasp time...
i found lots of stuff to keep myself entertained...
sometimes life's gotta be lonely here and there even though everything is already smooth enough...

i've been isolating myself from the world i think since the last event finished...
trying to be least committed to anything or everythin...
tts one way to run away from every comment and troubles that might come...

things happens...
how do i feel ?
i dun know... emotions and thots...
i'm running away again...
trying not to think about anything sad or if anything is missing..
trying to delete all the thots and stuff...
tts y maybe i'd wan her to know...
xie xie ahh maaa...
xie xie ni zhe meh teng wo...
wo ji de... xiao shi hou... ni heng teng wo...
zui teng wo le...
every sunday.. i would receive calls from my aunt house asking if i'm coming to eat dinner..
every sunday... she would call and ask if i'm coming..
every sunday or other days... i would hear my aunt maid telling me that my ah ma everytime ask her y i never go visit her.. y i not coming to eat dinner...
i forgotten about her... forgotten about since i was a baby she was nearby there looking after me till i was secondary and my parents moved to a nearby blk ..
it was a realli simple task to walk over to pay her a visit... but i didnt...
now... i would never have a chance to repay back her kindness and tengness...
i'm angry with myself... for being so selfish in the past...
wanting to be alone and trying to push every committement and responsibility out of my life...
juz because i dun wish to open out..
i was blessed with a very kind grand mother and grandfather that doted on me a lot..
i have a great family.. even though i not the one being doted the most as i'm the eldest..
but i'm glad...
xie xie ah ma and ah gong... i'll remember you always.
ah ma ah gong i'll promise to take care of papa and mama and didi and mei mei de...
at least this promise i'll do my best...

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To my gal...
thanks for being there worrying for me... thinking for me... helping me... accompanying me ...
being there for me always..
but juz wanna let you know...
I know i'm a idiot..
I'm realli glad i have you...
even though i still got thots of past memories..
even though i choose a different path...
even though i always make u rain..
even though i always bully u...
even though i always dream...
but you are my precious silly gal...
whom i'll protect and take care of you !!

Time will fly and things will change ...
maybe one day...
maybe...
things might happen....
but as long as you're mine ,
i'll do my best for uuuuuuuuuuuu....
I'll care for u protect u and take care of you..
spend all my money on you...
make sure u smile and is happy when i am able to make you !!!
make sure u'll wake up every morning smiling!!
muaccckkk...
happy 11mthsary...
may we have another 11plus11plus11plus11plus11plus11TIMESblabblabblabsquare
to go !!!

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feels much better after blogging out this...
i'm going blast out...
all my heart !!
cherishing all my impt people tts keptin my heart...
wishing people that have onced crosspaths with me..
must cherish impt ppl that loves u...

happy b'dae yuan zhi..!!!!!