step 15

kinda wuss..
big loud arguemnt coz of my mother...
i dun understand... $3500 a month... someone who gambles... someone who's never at home... someone who when my bed spoils... juz let me slp on the floor for 3 months... someone who blames me for everything wrong at home...
someone who says i juz hope for u to grow up and earn ur own money... while she juz gamble manjong... hires a maid... and juz lives her live everyday...
This is the correct way a mother should be ...
she could say until she dun haf money...
she can say until i demand too much ...
i live in a home with a spoiled door... spoiled water handle...
i pay for my shaver, tooth paste...
in a room with a mess-up aircon....
Am i demanding too much ?
or i juz dun understand my mother ?

I wanna rejoin track...
I wanna study for exams...
I wanna earn money to support myself...
I wanna look after my best friends... esp those i know are impt to me...
I wanna fulfill the promises i make ... to my friends, to special ppl and to myself...

today is step 15 after the new year...
cant lose my life and control...
keep ya heads up...
use hard work to earn my pride and honour..