What was 2008 for you ?
What happened in 2008 ?
Are you happier ?
What did you do ?
What would 2009 be for you ?

2008,
I went bangkok with my lovely miss lim jin hui
I POPed from Tracom as National Service Probationary Inspector
I refurnished my room
I fixed up my every own desktop
I ermmx.. started ACCA and decided myself i didnt want to continue this path
I went to Airport to become STAFF OFFICER HEAD OPERATIONS & TRAINING A.K.A SO HOT
I performed well and up to standard in my workplace
I went Outward bound while training in Tracom..
I became slightly more anti-social...
I organized events at Airport police... and it's the best they've ever had !! :b

2009

I shall start driving
I shall start running
I shall start dreaming
I shall spend a lot of time with my friends
I want to have 80% hardship in my life, 20% taste of happiness would be enough !!
Lastly, It'll be fun to go overseas !! :b

Ahhhhhhhhh.......

What if...

HHO HO0 HO Meerrrry Christmas !!

and a happy new year !!

gal gal... miss ya !!

exercise !!
work !!
interaction !!
take care of gal gal !!
event for APD !!
ikea with ze kai & friends !!

oki !! these items at the moment!!

my poor gal gal is sick !!

get well soon k !! get well soon k !!

a joke to share !!

　　小明的老师规定要日行一善，每天要报告，
　　一天，小明和小美的报告都是扶老婆婆过马路，
　　在老师详细追问下，
　　小明说：「是我扶老婆婆的！」
　　小美接着说：「我帮小明的忙！」
　　老师问：「扶一个老婆婆为何要两个人？」
　　两人回答：
　　「因为老婆婆很固执不肯过马路，而且她力气又很大...」

get well soon k gal gal

Tomorrow

What do you expect of your tomorrow ?

Work... get back home, look for things to do, play game , watch videos, slack ?

Arggg !!! F[_](l< !! Its cursing and swearingly dumb pathetic and disgusting.

Everyday, every free time you have, assuming that your work is just a job, nothing exciting just a commitment you have to give to your nation.

Is there any other thing keeping you alive, your life exciting, your life to be look forwarded to tomorrow ?

Entertainment ? I've conquered all sorts of crap entertainments ... Game consoles, MMORPG, PC games, Videos, movies, Tv Shows. Megaupload lets me burn a latest xbox360 or PC game in less than 2 hours. 8gb in 2hrs. 1 WHOLE series of "YOU NAME IT" Drama can be downloaded within 30mis.

During secondary school, I've Had track and field. Training, training, train like a dog, train till dark. Its tiring, but it was really really fun and keep me feeling my life isn't a waste. Thanks to my track team, esp ppl like yuan zhi, ze kai and also people like norman, adam, qin xiang, blab blab blab that added so much so much fun into it. The experience of having a bunch of friends who wants nothing but to work hard and improve is like none other.
My classmates played a major role from then till now too.

During Poly, I've had Student Unions. Planning, Working. Experience working with different people, creating, exploring, successfully had events that was launched. It wasn't easy, but the rewards of having no regrets in an event. Sweet and special. Having a team, or a small group of people working for success is also really special. Special thanks to the committee members that really entertained me. special Thanks to Jean yeo jia yi for JAM and HOp and all the stuff a capable and giving president.
The other event was Sports Fiesta. Special thanks to ho yiting, lam wei siong, Clement , YONG SIANg , ying shya who played a huge part in entertaining and inspiring me and forcing me to vomit blood to complete the event.

After poly, I spend my days with this wonderful girl called miss lim jin hui. we went Genting, Bangkok, Redang and so many other special memories we share. We bake cookies together, cook dinner for my family, do all sorts of crap stuff together... this week she's off to genting with her family and haix, i'm alr missing her.

Present... National service ? I revamped my room with IKEA, made my own desktop, got new bag, became a NSPI, POLICE INSpector which does OTOT work hard with no satisfaction cause the scope is not of value.

But all these are short term targets, I dont want to go home each day and find myself having no dreams... I'm left with 6 more months of National service.

I HATE passing each day without tiring myself out,
without a reason to work hard,
without having hopes and goals for the day.
without a drive

Being deprived of all these really makes life empty and a torment.

Happiness

What is happiness ?
Do we even know what makes us happy?

Having a nicer room, a new made desktop or any more wants doesn't make one happier.

I believed it was the process, the time spend with her making my new room that made it so fun and special.
'We don't realize how quickly we will adapt to a pleasurable event and make it the backdrop of our lives. When any event occurs to us, we make it ordinary. And through becoming ordinary, we lose our happiness we gain from it.''

This theory is correct yet true happiness i think is always there, when one is struggling with life. The struggling the putting up of a fight. Having a reason to work hard for. Being able to do that is happiness.


I want to find my new pursuit of happiness.
my new reason to work hard.
my new hopes and goals.
my new drive.

Have u found yours ?

This part of your life is over ? the part now and the part of the past.

Have you found the next part ?

your pursuit of happiness ?

PLease take 3 mins to listen to the first song i uploaded... !! its really cool !!

Whats your dream ?

what are you going to work hard for when you grow up ?

zzzZzz...

time to start working hard...

working with idiots is tough.
Stood up to my boss.
clarified the situation with him.

let's face it.
Ops & Trg branch is a challenge.
As have my Ops Officer security(ASP) said,
"Being in ops is no easy feat and you will be moulded into someone of better calibre if you can survive this stint."

I've survived the busiest periods working from 7am-11pm(deployment), continous OT for weeks, having classes after work, innocently became scapgoat. Maybe there will be worse scenario...

At least, I've yet to disappoint my boss or other officers' expectation of my work and undermining my capabilities. But Airport Police Ops & Trg Branch does deliver some rare and precious values and rewards. A office of my own, its a real deal/ownage for a NSF. Exclusive experiences at airport transit, expensive goodie bags from events worth $100s.

I should consider myself lucky.

Luck/fate has always been kind to me.

Being in a complete and somewhat financially-abled family.
Being able to have best friends that have lasted.
Being able to spend time with my gf jin hui.
Being able to Win toto
Being able to be healthy
Being able to have my own office
Being able to decorate my room with ikea stuff
Being able to be happier and luckier than most ppl
Being able to have everything I would ever need

zi zui... and appreciate and embrace life.

now, pray pray hard I can clear the exams for ACCA for this SEM
then there would be no restrains/pressure for a CAREFREE, HAPPY MEEeeeee

I juz wanna say ... I got the chioest desktop feel ever ... style is pretttty

fugging ccb knn etc etc etc regulars .. wtf

RESPONSIBILITY
PRIDE
GUTS
RESPECT

none of these mean anything ?

PUI PUI PUI pUI PUI...

Personal RESPONSIBILITY...
Integrity
hardwork
effort

haiz... all these values mean nothing in my branch...

suffer the pain
struggle in the shame
fight the dishonorable

I will not succumb to the cheap values that u hold...

I swear to whatever i believe in...
that I willl never turn into losers like u...

its 1.24 AM !!!

and i going back apd to clear mail... and 315 got to go airport... YAWWWWWWWWNNNNZZZZ

time to get some new music... coz..

I'm going to work now ....

kinda look familiar...

suddenly the core concept of communism isnt tt bad...

but who's to say whats right and wrong ?

Seriously posting photos up is damm -.-"... haix... time to slp..

I got new office le... I finished an event !! as booth management as my main task..
woots.. my DY(duty commander of APD) said this was the best deeparaya ever... lolx..

hahas... felt a little Man zu gan... juz a little not filling one... but at least my efforts not in waste...

hahahs.. My new office ROCKs... super neat and tidy le !!!

uploaded the picts at facebook !! >.<

hmmx... I've been a starter... like the events i do in SU... all is new startups..

at APD , I also in a new post.. coz the Last Staff Officer to Head Ops & Trg a.k.a SO HOT died in a car crash...

In this new post.. I get elected into Unit Welfare Fund Committee.. which was a first since the last 3-4 NSPI nv did wanna go in ...

I get to be the first NSPI to be inside this new office which will be undertaken by future batches.. .

I realli clean it up nice and neat...

quite man Zui also... I'm believe i'm still facing problems with AOOs ... some of them are juz ---------- ...

nvm... I'alsway dont wanna care so much...

Still no right feelings now... so much doubts in life.. confused...

i think I'm a little confused...
lost...

What ?
Where ?

don't have an objective...
don't have a vision...


what am i suppose to be working hard towards ??

Confused with the rules I've set,

Give me a reason...

juz less than 1 hr i miss her le... clearing all the entertainment and stuff in my room.. then feeel like i haf nothing valuable or precious stuff...

My gal gal ... missing her...

I'll work hard... Fix UP all the CRAP STUFF IN LIFE...

FIX UP every crap stuff...

gonna work hard...

gal gal work hard for ur studies also k...

wont be using msn hp that much le ... can contact me thru my googletalk :D

2 weeks my boss had gone on leave...
a peaceful boring 2 weeks...
I dont know what to blog...
I wonder ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
but then again ,

Anyway, must firstly encourage my gal gal to study hard....
we're going on a 2 months no relationship committement study period...
we'll still meet but time will be shorten....
must do ya best best to get ya gd results - double degree my gal!!

kinda need an inspiration
a dream
a target
a interesting topic to work on in life...

I wonder ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

working and studying kinda sucks
esp when they eat up ur weekends
and u got a job that demands OT

Oh !! thats a very nice show called Ming Zhong Zui ding Wo Ai Ni
A bittersweet drama - nice!!
must watch !!

yawwwwnz... lets start working hard T.T suffer a little here and there .. its a part & parcel of life

Disinformation is the deliberate dissemination of false information. It may include the distribution of forged documents, manuscripts, and photographs, or propagation of malicious rumors and fabricated intelligence. In the context of espionage or military intelligence, it is the deliberate spreading of false information to mislead an enemy as to one’s position or course of action. In the context of politics, it is the deliberate attempt to deflect voter support of an opponent, disseminating false statements of innuendo based on the candidates vulnerabilities as revealed by opposition research. In both cases, it also includes the distortion of true information in such a way as to render it useless.

Disinformation should not be confused with misinformation, which is merely false information spread by mistake.

Disinformation techniques may also be found in commerce and government, used by one group to try to undermine the position of a competitor. It in fact is the act of deception and blatant false statements to convince someone of an untruth. Cooking-the-books might be considered a disinformation strategy that led to the Sarbanes-Oxley Act.

Unlike traditional propaganda and Big Lie techniques designed to engage emotional support, disinformation is designed to manipulate the audience at the rational level by either discrediting conflicting information or supporting false conclusions.

Another technique of concealing facts, or censorship, is also used if the group can affect such control. When channels of information cannot be completely closed, they can be rendered useless by filling them with disinformation, effectively lowering their signal-to-noise ratio and discrediting the opposition by association with a lot of easily-disproved false claims.

A common disinformation tactic is to mix some truth and observation with false conclusions and lies, or to reveal part of the truth while presenting it as the whole (a limited hangout).

The Cold War made disinformation a recognized military and political tactic. Military disinformation techniques were described by Vladimir Volkoff.

Introduce another new book...

Confession of an economic hit man...

some thoughts that I had when reasoning out theories of terrorism acts before I read this book...
why would people do this ?
by their religion ? by brain-wash ?
nah...

Objectives ?
The directions of their acts?
Blab blab blab..

this is a sensitive topic here...

I would like to make it clear I'm not supportive of terrorism acts..
I am against such acts of terror...
However I am also against the acts that cause hatred and desperation that forced people... normal people to these acts..

Actually where does the problem lies...

What's Right ? What's Wrong ?

The direction of those with power ability to make changes, power that had made choices to knowingly hurt...
Power corrupts...

All sorts of beliefs, theories, holy words...
Are they Right ? Are they wrong ?
Aren't they just words ?

Words are be fabricated into wonderful lies that lures people's weakness.
The power of words can be made into different types of weapons
-Laws
-Marketing
-Lies
equipped with controllable media...

What if all the information we received are just artificial ?

Anyway, this book added facts to some of my beliefs..

But ... this are just mindless belief.. I don't intend to explore more into that field..

Looking at the widest picture... isn't a lot of countries doing the same thing.. lolx.. I don't even want to venture into the thoughts in some area's.

I rather work hard get rich and do charity...

No point picking a fight with the "GODS" that had controlled, contained, decided lives of others and made decision that killed...
Sincerely hope that decisions of lesser profit but more aid to the people's solution is being made..

My level is way too low..

i guess i got no right to complain about a tough life...
lolx...
i'm so nowhere >.< hmmx... gotta work harder...

oh yeah...

Maybe when i free i post up picts of the army run and also my ROOm PICTS... my room is so cooooool... hahhas...

intro a cool book - artemis fowl.. niceeE..

some plans !! maybe to add in more challenge in my life... considering SATs paper or driving.. wonder if i can take it a not.. lolx...

Music !!!

Upload new songs !! :D

hmmmx... before whining .. I'll start with some Crappy Jokes !! LOLx..

We were having a discussion on teams at my workplace.. then they started to complain about their bosses... then some random topics then..

B: yeah... some of them go bs to score points one

A: EH.. Look look at my back !!

us: huh ? *lost

A: can see the holes ?? tio backstab until got so many !!

ME: !!!!!!!!! LOLX !!!!!!!!! WTF SO CRAP !! lolx lolx lolx


Joke 2

2 men stuck on an island. the tribal leader go to them.

the tribe leader say 'you have 2 choices, buka buka, or death."

so the first guy chose buka buka.

then the tribesmen take his penis and whack it several times on a tree trunk.

the man leaves in much pain, unable to even walk.

after seeing what buka buka is, the 2nd man told the leader,

"I want death."

Then he got buka buka'ed to death.

Lolx... lastly a nice pict !!




lolx... this few jokes made my day lolx...

I wonder if i can juz laugh everyday lolx...

Lastly the whining part ... ARGGGGGGGGGGGG ..... WTF ... Y ARE U GUYS SO -.-" wtf no workplace ethics man... F****** nothing better to do ... hell.. DO YOUR OWN WORK... !! QUIT TAICHIING and STOP CARRYING BALLS -.-"

seriously...

i got a mp3 player !! creative stone plus at 99 dollars from comex fair on friday !! now got music to keep my mind of brainstorming all the pek chek stuff...

haix... miss the simple days of juz laughter everyday.. :D

hahas.. nothing much to blog about ... ONLY CAN SAY tired and and wore out .... lolx...

days are busy as time goes by, it ain't easy but hard work gives the best results... :D

some days are just bad days, at least i haf her !!!

 
 
 
 

 
 
 
 

I've been busy nowadays ... lolx...

monday tuesday are my most tiring days... shag me out like nothing.. but it SERIOUSLy feels good exhaust my energy...
I have this urgency, this fear or desire to waste all this energy outta me ... just working every monday to friday isnt satisfying me enough... HAHhas..
for a month or so ... i sleep less than 5 hrs a night for 2-3 nights every week..
hahas.. trying to find entertainment to waste my energy.
I haf something, something that i can drive all my energy into..

I'm going the wrong direction...
I already have event/SU similar work and Ops & trg work to entertain me during work. monday and tuesday night classes for studies... weekends for simple and sweet days with her...
i still got wednesday thursday and friday nights... so much time...
but i've been wasting all my excess energy on entertainment games etc.
this insanity of working somthing out is driving me...

Bring it on...

taste of success is near...

Never push the blame to others , when you're the one who bring urself down....
One may talk wise but is all but talk... lolx..
if one's smart you dont haf to talk about it.
one who is always in a bad position talks smart, give reasons, give smart excuses.
suddenly thinking.. hahas.. a failure talks smart
but if one is always in a good position and choose to talk dumb...
HAHA - Dont lie... HAHA...

Its beeeeen a month since i last blog !! lolx.. now inside station.. Ahhh crap... kinda bored.. Hmmx.. I got this coooooooool ORGANISTATIon( juz my branch onli de(Ops & Training))chart !!! got my name inside and itsss so crap lolx..

went to bangkok i last month !! hahas.. i gotta comment on the hotel reception guy !!! so crap lohx..

Hotel reception(Troy) : Hi, so you're going back ? when will you be coming back to bangkok ?

Me & Others(jin hui,wei ming,ken ken) : ehhhhhhh... (before we even answer)

Hotel reception(Troy) : In your next life ? Never coming back again (with a wide grin)

Me : !!!!! LOLX... so crap !! (how can a hotel staff be so crap and friendly with his guest !! lolx... somemore like encouraging us never to come back to tt hotel !! LOLX !!!!!!! hahas.. so anti his hotel !! BTH!! )
Their english got thai accent makes them sound very interesting !!!! Lolx..

Hmmmx... nowadays quite tiring but very packed makes my life feel full...

wanna do & achieve a lot of stuff...
wanna be excited and amazed with new stuff..
wanna experience !!

Currently started on acca le.. In the main committee in event organising in Airport Police Department is something like EXCO in SU... but its called UWF... hahas.. its FINANCIAL AND RESOURCES is quite good...

I am FULLY Packed WITH energy AND Spirit... I wanna organise Something COOL !! BIG !! Amazing !! Innovative !! Creative !! Simply make an art !!
This time with no pain-in-the-ass/headache issues hahas..

me ? I'm still me !! Strong and willed !!! Willed.. juz hate to give up something which is impt to me.. so its never giving up

before i go offf..

thank you my gal for being by my side..
thank you for being my not only my galfriend
but being my companion and best friend
u're still important after so long..
soo...
pls cont to be my gal for the secs, mins, hours, years to come !!

wasted a lot of time resizing the picts.. yawwnz... got to go work soon
haix.. got a huge ulcer..

hmmx....

A little delication to my gal...

here it goesss..

this is my gal gal when she was so young !! :P


then after that she grow up le !!

:P
then go to her dinner and dance with her horrible makeup skills :P

but so cute :P



her poly times without me !!!












then one day...

IT HAPPENED !!

i found herrrrr !!!





her dolpins :P



our mickey and minnie

lost one though !! WHOEVER THAT STOLE IT ... LOOK !! I AM A POLICE MAN (NS) RETURN IT






Our redang trip !!! :P


she cut short hair !!
actually like her short her a lot :P

the way she look in it.. but then hmmx... long hair nicer to teng





and lastlllly



Us !!

actually i steal from her friendster :P

hmmx...

actually juz wanted to express my feelings for her..

still realli like her a lot after 2yrs plus le...

u got lots and lots of stuff i like so much about..

some so special to me i wouldnt tell ya :P

hmmmx... got to go work le !!

SHIT its 752 le ... think gotta take cab ..

hahas.. slack shit me ... SHIT GOT TO RESIZE PHOTO FIRST !!!

some time has past...
time to update a bit of my memories and thots here !!

hmmmx ... shall let picts do my work !!!

lets start from the memories of oct !!

OBS !!!



we started off with introductions and all sort of ah gua games lolx...

BUt sooooonn


ended up trekking for 4 days..

lolx... sounds lame to army but hmmx.. its not super easy neither



alll the reflection stuff..




row row row !!
back to camp 1



ahoy !! setting sail !!



under the shade under the rain



wad cha cooking



nice scenery ya never expect to see in singapore



ULGY PICT lolx



our sail boat !!




men of the sea

lolx... NOOO KAYAKING PICTS ?? CRAP ...

Lolx.. maybe got time shall find them and upload


hmmx... Graduation day !!





















Dine in !!




my kayaking budding lolxx



My melayu friends !!



my chin na friends



lastly my mother me and my gal !!